never imagined I’d be writing a blog like this. I’m sitting here surrounded by half-drunk cups of coffee, laundry that never seems to end, and four fur babies fighting for a spot in my lap. On the outside, it might look like just another day in the life of Crazy Busy Mama. But today, my heart feels different. Heavy. Vulnerable. Honest.
The truth is: I need help.
I’ve always prided myself on being the one who could juggle it all. The schedules. The kids. The content. The mess. The healing. The grief. The cooking. The business. The late-night Target runs and early-morning school drop-offs. You name it, I did it. And I did it with a smile (and maybe a messy bun and three cups of coffee, but still).
But after the unexpected and heartbreaking loss of my husband, everything changed.
Suddenly, I found myself in a place I never prepared for. Not just emotionally or mentally, but practically. He was my person, my partner in everything. From helping manage the chaos to encouraging me to dream big for Crazy Busy Mama—he was there. And now, trying to carry all of it without him has left me overwhelmed and, honestly, exhausted.
Grief doesn’t wait for your to-do list to clear. It doesn’t care if you’ve got a video to film, a brand deadline to meet, or dinner to make. It crashes in like a wave and takes your breath away when you least expect it.
Most days, I still wake up and can’t believe he’s not here. And other days, I push through with everything I have, knowing that he would want me to keep building this community, keep showing up for my kids, and keep getting after it—even if it looks different now.
That’s why I’m writing this today.
Because I’ve realized I can’t do this alone anymore.
It’s taken me a while to get to this point. I’m the type who doesn’t ask for help easily. I’m used to figuring things out and making it work, even if it means staying up until the wee hours of the morning and waking up before the sun. But this season has taught me that asking for help isn’t weakness—it’s wisdom. It’s strength. It’s stewardship.
And so, I’m officially taking a step I never imagined I’d need to take.
I’m hiring a personal assistant for Crazy Busy Mama.
Not just any assistant, but someone who gets it. Someone local to the Kansas City area who understands what it means to wear a lot of hats and do it with heart. Someone who can help me keep things running smoothly behind the scenes, so I can keep showing up with purpose and presence in the ways that matter most.
Here’s a little glimpse of what I’m looking for:
- Someone who’s organized (like, color-coded Google Sheets kind of organized).
- Someone who can help manage emails and schedule chaos.
- Someone who’s not afraid to roll up their sleeves and steam some clothes or organize a table full of product samples.
- Someone who can run errands with a smile and problem-solve on the fly.
- Someone who can help manage shipping, inventory, and prep for launches or events.
- Someone who sees this not just as a job but as a chance to support a mission.
This assistant will be a hands-on part of the CBM world, working alongside me as we continue to grow this community, love on people, and create content and products that meet women right where they are.
And let me just say: this isn’t about perfection.
I don’t need someone who has it all together. (Let’s be real, none of us do.) I need someone who can show up with a good attitude, who cares about the details, and who can help bring a little more peace to the beautiful mess we’re building together.
If you’re someone who thrives on variety, enjoys making things run smoother, and believes in the heart behind Crazy Busy Mama, this might be a perfect fit. Or maybe you know someone who’d be amazing for this role—if so, feel free to pass it along!
I want this role to be a blessing not just for me, but for the right person who feels called to it.
As I take this next step, it feels a little scary and a lot humbling. But I’m learning (slowly but surely) that God often does His best work when we finally let go and let Him lead. And right now, He’s nudging me to create space—space to heal, space to breathe, and space to let others help carry the load.
So here we are. A new chapter. A new ask. A new opportunity.
If you’re interested in applying, I’d love for you to fill out the application below. I’m praying over this process and asking God to bring the right person into this next season with me. Someone who’s not afraid of the messy middle, and who wants to be part of something that matters.
Here is the link to apply:
👉 Click here to fill out the CBM Assistant Application
Thank you for being here. For reading. For supporting. For being a part of this story. I’m so grateful.
With love, Lori Conway (Crazy Busy Mama)
Hang in there. Grief is a beast and though it never ends, it lessens. I became a single mom of 4 with a business and 2 other jobs. My sis lost her husband at 47 when their kids were only 5, 8 & 10, leaving her to raise them and run her own music therapy business, while having to deal with her husband’s business, which was owning apartment buildings that they rented out and he did all the maintenance for. We went through so many nightmares, hers so much worse than mine. This week to the day, she is in Hawaii, teaching her kids to snorkel, which was supposed to be the trip. She and her husband took when the kids were old enough, since that’s where they went for their honeymoon. They’re having a phenomenal time, but they see him in rainbows everywhere they look. The business will get through it, or it won’t, but one way or another you will. Your kids will learn your strength, and God will make sure you have enough of it to get through. Never feel worried about asking for help, you need and deserve it. I had to get someone else to clean for me so that I could focus on work. Someone else did my lawn. My kids helped with meals, the older two got the twins off the bus every day. The little things add up, and you’ll get there. There will be a day when you look in the rearview mirror and realize this was a small bump in a long road, but that you are finally through the worst of it and in a beautiful place. Good luck, I’m saying a prayer for you.
I lost my husband of 48 years 17 months ago. Life is so different and I understand your pain, your loss, your grief, your sadness, your loneliness and being overwhelmed. God bless you as you take this step forward. Going forward is healing. Blessings to you moment by moment and day by day.♥️
Please Lord send her a helper yes the Holy Spirit and the person You Lord made ahead of time for this job in Jesus name please send comfort to this family as only YOU can
This is a great next step. I’ve been hoping you would make this decision soon. A few suggestions I have for you is to make sure this person has some of the skills Q had to offer you such as great computer skills and even website and social media skills too. This type of person would be invaluable to you right now as it all takes do much time. I don’t know maybe you have a virtual assistant who does some of this for you but the right person ca. Do miracles to help offload duties and reduce stress.
This is such wisdom, and definitely will give you space for increased healing, time with your family, peace and creativity. You are following the leading of our Holy Spirit, Who is very practical! Good for you! This position will bring joy and purpose to the one waiting to be found. Prayers for peace and wisdom in the selection.
Praying for this next chapter as God leads the way🙏🏻
I do wish I lived there I’ve been a personal assistant for over 30 years i love my job and love helping other’s live their best life with less stress I’m praying God sends you the perfect person and perfect for this is so amazing that your willing to accept it and allow it. It’s a huge step and your doing a great job.. the year after I lost my hubby i buried myself in work I had to stay busy I worked 2 jobs but I wore myself completely out but it was the best way to handle grief at that time so I totally get this hugs to you sweet lady. You got this and God’s got you.. help is coming soon.
Sending prayers you find the right person and the right person finds you ! NEVER for the AMAZING person YOU are !!
Good luck in finding the right person. God can deliver and he will. This may be just what you need
Praying for you! Also wishing I lived in KC! 😅 Be blessed today! ❤️
I’m so proud of you for reaching out and asking for help. As mamas we tend to get the mind set “We got this”. But it can be so exhausting. I sincerely wish you Gods blessings in this new chapter of life. And praying He will lead the right person your way to lift the load off your shoulders. Blessings to you and your family.
I love how you are looking for someone who needs it too that you “want this role to be a blessing not just for me, but for the right person who feels called to it.” Praying this person falls in place with prayer & guidance. A high tide indeed lifts all ships! Sending lots of love, Libby
While this person is not me, I wanted to reach out and tell you what a great idea this is for you! It’s perfect! Honestly my daughter’s father passed away suddenly and while we were divorced he was my best friend. We did everything together. I am lost without him. He was our rock. I understand this grief journey. Your husband was full of life. It’s. It fair. He was young and your world. Never ever feel bad for speaking about how you feel. It’s your right! It’s therapeutic. Ignore the haters! You do you Lori!
God has just the right person in mind for you. I am praying for you. When the time is right she will be there and you will know it. Thinking of you often. God is so good!
Lori, sounds like wisdom. I lost my husband in the same season. (April 12, 2024). I have followed your journey through grief, and prayed for you and yours. Keeping hanging onto the Thread of His Garment. Am certain He will send you a helper. I am coming to the conclusion that I may have to seek the same. Sending my best virtual hugs your way tonight.
Lori, sounds like wisdom. I lost my husband in the same season. (April 12, 2024). I have followed your journey through grief, and prayed for you and yours. Keeping hanging onto the Thread of His Garment. Am certain He will send you a helper. I am coming to the conclusion that I may have to seek the same. Sending my best virtual hugs your way tonight.
I so wished I lived there girly! I’d love to help you get organized with your launches and the fun that goes along with it. I kmow God has the perfect person already picked out for you! This next chapter in your life I pray is one of peace. Its so hard going through life mourning. I.lost my mom in 2021.and I can’t seem to move from the grief. Somedays are ok, others im bawling my eyes out. She was my best friend and shes left a huge hole in my life and heart with her absence. Im excited for you ladybug! May God bless you abundantly with your family, and your business. I know Q is watching over you everyday. 🥰
Praying for the right person to apply for this job and to help you. It is wonderful that you are listening to what God wants you to do. My pastor said Sunday that we miss out when we try to do everything our way and we miss what he has for us. I am so sorry for how you are hurting. I don’t know how that feels but my best friend lost her husband last year. And I lost my father at the age of 14. It’s tough. Praying for you as you start this new journey! God has great plans for you plans to prosper you! You can do hard things. Take one day at a time. And it’s ok not to be ok! That you for all your inspiration and your smile! Love ya!
I will pray God places the exact person for this role. I think it’s a wonderful opportunity for someone and will help you to continue sharing God’s word to so many. Much love, prayers and support for you Lori.
I so so wish I lived in Kansas City!! I would love nothing more than to be apart of CBM. Helping to bring families back to the table to eat and spend time together the way it was when I grew up. Since I can’t apply I will pray for God to bring just the right person and perfect fit to you. I am so proud of you for stepping out and trusting God in this next season and understanding 1 person can’t carry and take care of what two people used to and it’s ok to ask for help. That is such a big step. God will honor that an bring you the best person for the job. Love you friend!