I Never Thought I’d Be Here… But I Know I Can’t Do This Alone Anymore

never imagined I’d be writing a blog like this. I’m sitting here surrounded by half-drunk cups of coffee, laundry that never seems to end, and four fur babies fighting for a spot in my lap. On the outside, it might look like just another day in the life of Crazy Busy Mama. But today, my heart feels different. Heavy. Vulnerable. Honest.

The truth is: I need help.

I’ve always prided myself on being the one who could juggle it all. The schedules. The kids. The content. The mess. The healing. The grief. The cooking. The business. The late-night Target runs and early-morning school drop-offs. You name it, I did it. And I did it with a smile (and maybe a messy bun and three cups of coffee, but still).

But after the unexpected and heartbreaking loss of my husband, everything changed.

Suddenly, I found myself in a place I never prepared for. Not just emotionally or mentally, but practically. He was my person, my partner in everything. From helping manage the chaos to encouraging me to dream big for Crazy Busy Mama—he was there. And now, trying to carry all of it without him has left me overwhelmed and, honestly, exhausted.

Grief doesn’t wait for your to-do list to clear. It doesn’t care if you’ve got a video to film, a brand deadline to meet, or dinner to make. It crashes in like a wave and takes your breath away when you least expect it.

Most days, I still wake up and can’t believe he’s not here. And other days, I push through with everything I have, knowing that he would want me to keep building this community, keep showing up for my kids, and keep getting after it—even if it looks different now.

That’s why I’m writing this today.

Because I’ve realized I can’t do this alone anymore.

It’s taken me a while to get to this point. I’m the type who doesn’t ask for help easily. I’m used to figuring things out and making it work, even if it means staying up until the wee hours of the morning and waking up before the sun. But this season has taught me that asking for help isn’t weakness—it’s wisdom. It’s strength. It’s stewardship.

And so, I’m officially taking a step I never imagined I’d need to take.

I’m hiring a personal assistant for Crazy Busy Mama.

Not just any assistant, but someone who gets it. Someone local to the Kansas City area who understands what it means to wear a lot of hats and do it with heart. Someone who can help me keep things running smoothly behind the scenes, so I can keep showing up with purpose and presence in the ways that matter most.

Here’s a little glimpse of what I’m looking for:

• Someone who’s organized (like, color-coded Google Sheets kind of organized).
• Someone who can help manage emails and schedule chaos.
• Someone who’s not afraid to roll up their sleeves and steam some clothes or organize a table full of product samples.
• Someone who can run errands with a smile and problem-solve on the fly.
• Someone who can help manage shipping, inventory, and prep for launches or events.
• Someone who sees this not just as a job but as a chance to support a mission.

This assistant will be a hands-on part of the CBM world, working alongside me as we continue to grow this community, love on people, and create content and products that meet women right where they are.

And let me just say: this isn’t about perfection.

I don’t need someone who has it all together. (Let’s be real, none of us do.) I need someone who can show up with a good attitude, who cares about the details, and who can help bring a little more peace to the beautiful mess we’re building together.

If you’re someone who thrives on variety, enjoys making things run smoother, and believes in the heart behind Crazy Busy Mama, this might be a perfect fit. Or maybe you know someone who’d be amazing for this role—if so, feel free to pass it along!

I want this role to be a blessing not just for me, but for the right person who feels called to it.

As I take this next step, it feels a little scary and a lot humbling. But I’m learning (slowly but surely) that God often does His best work when we finally let go and let Him lead. And right now, He’s nudging me to create space—space to heal, space to breathe, and space to let others help carry the load.

So here we are. A new chapter. A new ask. A new opportunity.

If you’re interested in applying, I’d love for you to fill out the application below. I’m praying over this process and asking God to bring the right person into this next season with me. Someone who’s not afraid of the messy middle, and who wants to be part of something that matters.

Here is the link to apply:
👉 Click here to fill out the CBM Assistant Application

Thank you for being here. For reading. For supporting. For being a part of this story. I’m so grateful.

With love, Lori Conway (Crazy Busy Mama)